When Jim and I moved to Oceanside, California in June, I was 4 months pregnant and had gained 1 lb. Everything was going great and I was healthier than I had ever been. Then the real world kicked in. We lived in a tiny 1 bedroom apartment that we could barely afford, and found out what it was like to have full-time adult responsibilities. Jim worked long days, most of the time being gone from the house for at least 12 hours sometimes longer.
I had always been a very social person, and I found myself alone. My pregnancy was already showing and I figured it would be a waste of time to try to find a job at that point. Cell phones were not popular like they are now, and there was no way that I could afford to talk on the phone to my friends and family, because long-distance calls cost way to much. I really missed my mom and did get to talk to her quite a bit, but not near as much as I wanted to. Not only did we have very little money, we only had one car, so I only went somewhere during the day if I had a doctors appointment. On those days, I would have to take Jim to work and pick him up, it was quite a drive, so I stayed home most of the time.
Looking back, I can now admit that I was depressed. I really did not realize it at the time, because I really was happy that I was pregnant, and I was very happy with my relationship with Jim. I sat at home by myself, watched tv, and ate a lot of peanut butter and toast sandwiches. I gained an outrageous amount of weight during the rest of my pregnancy, and weighed about 205 lbs when Alexis was born.
Here is a picture of Alexis, who is now a beautiful, loving 12 year old.
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