Needless to say it was me. I went back to Wal-Mart the very next day and bought a set of scales, we had not owned any in years. Although I was still only 5'-2" tall, I weighed in at 235 lbs.
Things were not going well in my marriage, we still argued quite a bit and we were both very unhappy. I decided that I had to lose weight and get healthier or I was never going to be the type of involved, fun wife and mom that I wanted to be. I also had to do something to make myself feel better, as I was no longer getting those 'feel goods' from my marriage. There were people, including Jim that thought my weight loss efforts, were to make it easier to find a replacement, if we split up. He was very threatened by me wanting to look better, when I had neglected myself for so long. I was too insecure and embarrassed to have the nerve to put myself out there and tell him that I wanted to be skinny with him, and that I loved him with everything that I had.
He was not supportive of my efforts, but I tried anyway. I started taking a prescription diet medicine, and continued to take it for 3 months. I wish that I had done a better job of recording my progress, but I didn't.
By the time Jim and I separated in August of 2005, I weighed 165 lbs. I had lost 70 lbs in about 6 months. I know a lot of people lose weight when they are stressed, but more people, like myself usually gain weight with stress, so I will not attribute my loss to stress.
We did not get back together until February of 2006. Until that time I had maintained at about 170 lbs.
Pictures from around the time that I realized how badly I needed to lose weight. I really do not have very many pictures from that time, because I just refused to let people take my picture.
Ok First and most important, you are doing a GREAT job!!!! Second, I just wanna say thanks for wanting to share with me! Some of the blogs made me treay eyed:( but life isn't perfect you just have to take it slow and one day at a time! I know you can do this!! We are having the same issues down here as well from time to time and it's that wonderful word here too INSERCURITY! ugh bad bad word lol but it happens. And sometimes can get the best of us. On the days I don't have school we should start walking after the kids get to school. My MIL and I would sometimes walk the circle--from my house up to the station and down the main road and back up to my house we could walk it and maybe someday run it ahha! I have class on Tuesday and Thursday then when summer gets here it will be m-t ugh but with summer coming and being outside more I bet we both shed the pounds. winter is NOT my friend lol I tend to pack on some pound always in the winter! Well better get started on my paper KEEP GOIN UR DOING GREAT!!!!!!!!! Amy Shaw
ReplyDeleteAmy, I would love to walk. If it is too cold or raining, I have the two treadmills. I will message you my number. Call or text whenever. :)
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